Life

I haven't written in awhile..... Been busy. Right now if you asked me how I am, I would have to answer: unhappy. I hate my life. I will be married to my husband for 10 years in October and it has been 10 years of the same crap - nothing changing, standing still, unchanging. We talk, we set goals, and nothing. Promises broken. I also hate who I am. I have to patience, no love, no time for anyone. I focus on myself, how to better me and my life. I pray, read my bible, attempt quiet times, but still feel as though God is far off. I am doing my best to believe I am loved, worthy, heard, and forgiven. I am struggling. Sorry, this was a real post. I will be back to my cheery self by Sunday 😊